There are times when I just want to give up.  I had such an amazing day today, but I am so not happy right now. There are times when I want to say, "You know what, I don't need this.  I might not be able to get any guy I want, but I can find someone who cares more about me than you."  But I never would, because that same person makes me happier than anyone else.  However, when I have to tell him to care more, it kind of ruins the point of a relationship.  At this point, he'll either start acting like he cares, he'll dump me, or I'll deal with always feeling mediocre.  I change the way I think of myself to how my boyfriend thinks of me (I know, depressing), so maybe I'll just quit caring in public.