Now that I know that people actually checking this blog, I feel obligated to write something...

Hello, mah peeps!

I've made a decision recently, and it's actually making a pretty big difference in how I feel about myself.  As I've mentioned, there's been a lot of drama surrounding me recently, and I was obviously pretty angry about it.  I was starting to feel legitimately bad about myself.  It got to the point that I would lay awake for hours thinking about how horrible of a person I was.  I talked to my best friend and my boyfriend about it, which would make me feel better for the moment, but I'd just start feeling bad again soon after.

The thing that finally changed how I was handling the situation was a talk that I had with my Sunday School teacher.  She's a guidance counselor, and I've been telling her about how my week went after class since the beginning of the year.  She always gives good advice, but this situation really caught her interest.  She got pretty concerned about everything that was going on, and started off by telling me the usual... "Just be the bigger person!"  Instead of smiling and nodding, as I do when my parents tell me that kind of thing, I told her flat out that I wasn't sure if I could be the bigger person.  She went on to tell me about her views on being the bigger person.  She helped me realize some things that I needed to understand.

• While I got immediate satisfaction by complaining bitterly to some of my close friends, what did it really do to help?  Nothing.  
• If I don't feed the flames, eventually the fire will have to go out.  I know that a lot of other people are helping him keep up a good head of steam, I won't help it along.
• I refuse to make this a bad situation for my boyfriend.  I feel so bad for him, as his best friend hates his girlfriend.  But I am trying as hard as I can to just take the pressure off of him, because I don't want him to push me or his friend away.

Since I've refused to talk to anyone besides my boyfriend about this whole situation, I've felt SO much better!  Even though I wish that things could be different, I understand that I can't do anything, and I'm not going to give anyone an excuse to hate me.  I think that if people consciously tried to stay above drama, we just wouldn't have it.  Well, I hope that all of y'all take this to heart, and I wish you luck staying above all of this!

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